“I
sense anger, resentment, a desire to do more, to be more, than you are.”
I had been sitting there, in that tiny room
draped with black material that was all covered in silver stars and crescent
moons, for ten minutes by the time Madame Sage said that, five minutes after
I’d crossed her palm with some paper bills. I was a little surprised she had
left it so long. Surely she could feel the waves of rage pulsing out of me and
hurtling towards her, ramming into her, drowning her. It was so obvious, and it
wasn’t as though I was hiding it.
Why would I bother to do that?
She’s psychic. There’s no point in hiding
anything.
Right?
She wasn’t as good as some I’d seen. Which
gave me a little hope.
“Is that right?” she asked when I didn’t
respond. Her forehead creased a little and she leaned forward, gazing again at
the cards spread out in front of her. Maybe I was a little psychic for a moment
because I knew she was worried she had said the wrong thing.
I laughed. I couldn’t help it. If she thought
I was going to help her out with this, when I
was paying her, when it was her job, then she could think again. I tried
to communicate my thoughts to her but she really wasn’t a mind reader. More’s
the pity. And she didn’t look impressed with my outburst.
“Look, if you’re not willing to take this
seriously…”
“What?” I let the word spill from my mouth
because it was clear I was supposed to say something. It was the only word I
could think of.
She sat back, her own mouth straight and
tight and seeping red and greasy lipstick into the creases around the edges.
Bleeding. It made me think bad things and I changed my mind about wanting
Madame Sage to read my thoughts. She
wouldn’t like them. No one would. Even I didn’t at times.
“There’s that anger. I told you, didn’t I?”
Smug now, as though that proved something. I hadn’t even said it angrily. I
hadn’t said it in any particular way at all. I didn’t really care whether she
threw me out of her tent or not and it probably wouldn’t make much difference
to the future anyway. It was already written. It had to be. Otherwise people
like her wouldn’t be able to show off by spilling the beans.
I sighed, gave in, decided that if she didn’t
say something about why I was there in the next five minutes I was leaving
anyway. “Yes. Yes, you did tell me, you got it spot on. I’m full of fury, I
just want to hit out, to hurt.” I was giving too much away, I knew I was, but
she wasn’t biting. Not in the way they usually did.
Madame Sage was starting to get a funny look
on her face. Fear, confusion, uncertainty, disdain, as though she was listening
to some rather unpleasant gossip. It was not entirely unknown to me. My victims
must have arrived. They didn’t always, but when they could… they did. The
psychic paused, opened her mouth, changed her mind, shook her head. For my
benefit or someone – something – else’s?
“Well now, Miss Mossing, I don’t think the
spirits are willing to talk to me today. They’ve gone very quiet. Perhaps we
can make another appointment? Another time…” She sounded desperate for me to
leave. Sometimes they had a minder outside their carnival tents, but not this
one. She’d clearly never seen the need. I bet she wished she had foreseen this
now.
“Try the crystal ball.” I knew she had one.
They all had one. And I knew she was
lying about the spirits. They were there all right, you didn’t have to be
psychic to know that. There should have been enough of them to make even the
toughest sceptic suddenly call out for their mother and huddle under the covers.
She swallowed. She could see I was serious
now, even if she had doubted before. “I’m not sure that’s a good idea.” She
wiped a shaking hand across her forehead. “With angry spirits-”
“I thought you said there were no spirits
today.” My voice was emotionless and flat. It was my turn to be smug, my turn
to prove something. I held out my palm. “What about reading this then?”
She looked without meaning to, drawn in
despite herself. Fascinated and repulsed. She gasped and I knew that my future
was still the same as it always was. She didn’t even have to speak, and I don’t
believe she could so it was fine. Twenty-seven psychics visited, and
twenty-seven predictions, twenty-seven
identical predictions; I was destined to keep on killing. I wanted to stop,
I needed to stop, but they all told
me that I would keep going.
I made it quick. “I’m sorry,” I said as I
watched the life drain from her, washing away with the blood, as I slit her
throat; “But I think you saw that coming."
©Lisamarie Lamb 2013
Not bad, not bad at all. I don't know how I'm the only one to comment on this.
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